In my mind this was all part of the same awakening

Just last month, I picked up a used book that I remembered reading as a child. I have taken in and normalized so many images in my reading life, including ones that assert white supremacy. Many are by Asian or Asian American women, but even those categories are limiting in their own ways.
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Malvina:
I like girls a lot but am very shy around them.
(23 November 2016)

Malvina:
I am tall and shy when it comes to girls.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
What is this weird feeling?
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
Should I keep in touch with her?
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
I still can't think how about I should judge this situation, whether I should be happy to meet her, or sad that I have not achieved something more with her, or even blame myself.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
Actually, I can not stop thinking about this girl.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
I could not stop thinking about her all the way home.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
She said to me that tomorrow was her day off, a perfect opportunity to go out with her except that in the morning me and my family had to go home.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
I took her number before she go home and I was going to ask her out.
(23 November 2016)

Myrtis:
I asked about it, and she told me that she love her job (she was teaching some physical activity classes). This girl has changed my way of thinking about things in this time that we spent together.
(23 November 2016)