I used to be overweight but then I started clean eating and different aerobics exercises

I always had a dream to do something big. In February 2015, in almost in a year and a half, I lost 15 kg. I got an offer from well know dermatologist Dr Javed Alam Farooqui to give follow up to his weight loss patients. Then I started studying about dietetics and nutrition.
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Jeniffer:
Im crying as writing this. doesnt help that i cant move off my bed because it hurts . I am grateful because some people break down regularly.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I havent told anyone about this because I feel like I'll stress them out.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
When I got home I started full on crying for 1 hour I couldnt stop.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I haven't felt like this before about myself but all my flaws came to mind and I felt like crying but held it in.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
My friends tell me about how pretty I am and happy but I disagree, when I look in the mirror I see an ugly acne-filled girl whos always angry at someon.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I haven't told anyone I feel this way about those girls because they are my two best friends close friends and I don't want to confront them.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I find it difficult to talk to all my friends because there's 2 girls in my group that make me very uncomfortable and are always changing topics when I talk.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I have a large friend group but I feel like I only have 2 real friends and how the rest are fake and only friends with me because they feel they need to be.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I don't know why but I had thoughts about how ugly i am and how no one actually likes me.
(8 September 2016)

Jeniffer:
I couldn't handle this pain and started weeping but not crying.
(8 September 2016)